Updates on Reality...

I have continued to workout, doing the Bodyrock.tv workouts in pretty much random intervals that are based solely on how much time it takes my body to recover from the last workout. I stepped on the scale this morning and I am down another 4 pounds!!! I am pretty jazzed about the results since it seemed like no matter how much I worked out in the past, I never lost any weight. This time is different though, I can feel it. Life is pulling me in so many different directions that working out has become my anchor, the one thing I can control out of everything. It also has helped to visualize myself as the sexy, skinny woman that I want to become. This time it is less about appearance though; I made a promise to myself a long time ago that I would not allow myself to waste the best years of my life being insecure and unhappy with my body. I have never been particularly Fat, by most definitions, but whenever I looked in the mirror, all I saw were the love handles, the arm flab, and the chin fat. I never saw the person underneath that I so desperately wanted to be. Now that I see that girl shining through, finally, I am building up a momentum that can't be stopped. :)