To so many things that have happened in my life recently, my response has just been, "whatever". I am not filled with apathy but simply with a suspended belief in pretty much anything. I cannot rely on any one scenario to play out. my life is completely unpredictable at the moment, and it is a scary feeling. I am trying to ride the wave and accept the things that are thrown my way, but I can tell the stress is starting to take a toll on me mentally and physically. I am not sure what to do about it. I am hoping that like other unpleasant experiences in my life, this too shall pass.