I am finally feeling like I am coming out of my slump, which is good because school is rapidly coming to a close and the pressure is on in many ways. I am pressured to finish my work for classes and also to pack in as many college rites of passage in the next two months as humanly possible. I really want to go to this festival that happens every year; Chickenfest. It's held in a secret location every year in the woods of Maine. I really hope I get to go, because after this year I have doubts about whether I will still be in Maine.
I just feel like lately I haven't been getting into enough trouble. I have been playing it safe in a lot of ways, emotionally and physically. I have remained in a holding pattern for someone who would rather "have fun" than actually take the time to get to know me and spend time with me in a way that is emotionally meaningful to me. Just fucking someone can be very lonely. Almost more lonely than being alone. Well I think I have had enough. I am done waiting. I want action. I want to live.
This is my goal from now on: Live for Me, and Only Me.
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